So time to refocus. I have been thinking rather morosely lately and considering my death. What if it happened in a year? A week? Twenty years? Forty years? What would I want? How would I feel good about who I am and ensure I haven't squandered my time on earth.
Although I love my son and my boyfriend, focusing my entire happiness on them is neither healthy or reasonable. I'm a firm believer in helping others and I think this would be a good point upon which to base my successfulness in life.
Who gives a damn if the house if immaculate and fashionable. Is it clean to the point that no one will get hurt or sick? Then we're good. I could spend that time better by visiting friends and family.
However, just visiting with friends and family and others is not good enough. I need to take it further. I believe by focusing on helping others by making their lives easier, healthier, happier, I can in turn make mine as well.
I'm not talking about pushy, judgemental, "you should do this" improvement. I'm talking make healthy meals that are delicious so Ricky can enjoy food and be healthy improvement. I'm talking spending quality time with my boy learning new exciting things to help him develop improvement. I'm talking create a database at work that helps everyone track and document everything a lot easier improvement. I'm talking going to a care center and help clean up the place so the residents feel comfortable improvement.
So I believe in everything I do, I need to ask: "Am I doing my best to assist and support the person I'm with right now?"
If the words, "Thank you so much, this makes my life so much easier/better." Then I'm not doing my job.
