My North Star

Okay, so I'm reading this book on finding your North Star. It's awesome, but emotionally taxing and quite a bit of work. I think I'll start keeping this blog again and do some of the exercises in it. I also need to vent and get rid of some of these demons in my brain. So exercise #1 (in this arena anyway), write my life story from a hero perspective. Amy was born to Peiggi and David Ball. Two people in love, but unable to make things work out, they separated and decided to share the child. Very much in love with her daughter, Peiggi moved in with her mother and sister and aunt. They adored the baby. Amy was surrounded with constant love and adoration. As Amy grew older, the woman taught her about love, respect, and education. Intellect and creativity was encouraged in the family, and Amy never had an issue with her studies. Peiggi remarried when Amy was an adolescent bringing in two new sisters. She adored them and found a way to become close to both of them in her own way. Diana was street smarts. Hurt by the recent divorce of her father and mother, she still took Amy under her wing and treated her as her own sister. Donna, the younger step-sister, was also hurt by the recent events and took a bit longer to grow warm to Amy. However, as soon as the girls spent time together, they were the best of friends. Giggling long into the night and watching out for eachother always. Amy didn't have the ability to see her father much. He remarried and was busy trying to build his business and provide for the family. However, the brief times she did see him, he took her around with him and she learned about good work ethic and donuts. Her father never left her behind. He could have had her step-mother babysit her throughout the day, but he always woke her up at 5 a.m. and dragged her along to shows and events. He instilled in her the ability to work hard, and be strong. When Amy grew into a teenager, the family moved to the desert. Hauling water and burning trash was commonplace. However, she experienced what most teenagers don't out in the wild. She learned about wildlife. Experienced storms in the desert. Made a comfy place in a glutch. Put out fires, raise a horse, learned about snakes and experienced how the other half lived. Most of her friends lived in trailers, and from them she learned the importance of friendship and bonds. She also learned that she was special. Her teachers would test her and find out she was smart as a whip, but hated homework. Quite often she would grow bored of school and find other ways to keep herself entertained, such as with romance books and music. In her last year of high school, the family moved again. Closer to family and in the city. Amy adapted well. She finished school a bit early and started her working career. Although, only 17, her employers were always happy with her work and surprised at her ability to do more. She survived some rough bumps from employers who just wanted the minimum, but she never settled. She always pushed for more. At a young age, she learned to take care of those around her. Her mother became sick and Amy would stay with her through doctors visits, always taking a book, never complaining. Responsibility came early, and Amy helped provide the family with financial support. Paying rent, her bills, and her own school. Although, she never had much money leftover, she always made sure those around her were taken care of. Never concerned with her financial future to help and spoil those around her. Amy married early to a man she believed she was in love with, later realizing she was pulled in by his need for help. She spent 14 years supporting him, but all the while, taking care of herself. Going to school, working full-time and supporting her husband, she gave her all. She repeatedly tried to find the right combination to make it work. They supported his father, watched over his grandmother, and finally purchased a house of their own. When Amy could no longer take anymore, she made the final step and went to a therapist. She'd done all she could and finally made the decision to leave for a better life. Moving in with her friends, Ricky, Kenna and Bryant. She was finally free to be herself. She made friends. Went out. Lost weight. Purchased mini cooper just for herself. Led teams. Let herself really be herself, goofy, nerdy, fun. Still helping her friend out financially and taking on the responsibility for her ex-husband, Amy's finances remained tight, but she felt she did the right thing. She didn't turn her back on those who needed her. Money wasn't important. Security and taking care of those she loved was. Her mother got sick in 2005 and she visited her every day, thinking her mother would be out any day. She wasn't and Amy stood by her side with she slipped away. Her mother finally received the peace she was looking for. It affected Amy in ways she couldn't comprehend. While still maintaining a relationship with her grandmother, she stayed away from the family, taking time to recover emotionally. As time passed, Amy fell in love again. This time is was all consuming and passionate. This love was returned. And no matter how she tried to get away, he wouldn't let her. Her north star was telling her that although the circumstances were not good, THIS was her man. Her soulmate. The person she was supposed to be with. Rather than denying that feeling, she gave in. And for once, he showed her that he wanted her. Couldn't live without her. After a while, they both made the leap, trusting in each other and decided to build a life together. Within six months of dating, she became pregnant. The entire family was happy and supportive. He stood by her side and supported her, even though it scared him thoroughly. She weathered a stressful job, a new baby, a stressed boyfriend, and her own doubts and came out stronger for it. Her child turned out to be a truly happy human being who socialized and interacted with everyone. Her own relationship became stronger and her boyfriend asked her to marry him. Something she never thought would ever happen. He created a truly beautiful and fun proposal and all her friends and family gathered together to celebrate. They married in Vegas, dressing up in Spaceballs costumes and being thoroughly in love. However, one month before the wedding, her father got into an accident. Even though she was at a new job (which hired her with virtually no questioned asked), she went down to the hospital every day. She held his hand, talked to him, talked to the family, told him she loved him and how happy she was with him in her life again. Two days before her wedding, he passed away. All her friends and family gathered around her and supported her. Her boyfriend called people to action, to ensure she felt loved and heard. The year after that, she grew emotionally. Standing up for her son and her family, she supported and made a loving house. Supported her friend, Amanda, who went on to school in Spain. And helped out Ricky's friend, Sam, to get out of an abusive relationship. She currently resides in Phoenix, working an awesome job, getting paid lots of money, loved by her husband and son, family and friends. She vacations and spends a lot of time with friends and family. Now the rest is up to her...