I really should probably write more -- says the broken record.
Okay so what am I so anxious about? The house is in pieces right now. Can't fix the faucet by myself and can't fix the closet floor. Ugh!!!
The loan people finally emailed me back and asked if we had any more retirement funds. Ugh. Seriously?
On top of that I ate ALL the pints today. Okay granted, it's technically still within my limit. So I guess I should chill about that.
Okay so let's talk about worst case scenario. Worst case, we don't get the funding. Pete will just let us live in the house for another year. We'll have to come up with one more month of rent. And now we'll have time to fix the things in the house that we want. Build our credit. We know what to do. Ricky gets a bonus in June which will help to the extra/catchup rent.
Pros about life right now:
- You know what it takes to get where you want
- You've cleaned up some things and you know how easy it is to bump up your credit
- You won't have as much to pay each month in rent and everything else
- You won't have extra money to pay to appraisal and inspections and such.
- You're car is in good condition
- You have the means to get healthy. You're smoking a lot less. You're exercising. You're drinking water. You're doing better.
- You're doing well at work. Everyone loves you. You have what it takes. You just need to see yourself as a capable woman.
Cons:
- Hmmm, I guess there isn't much. They're really wrapped up in the emotional right now. Con is the house actually goes through, the inspection...wait, if the house goes through and you get an inspection, Pete won't care. I mean honestly. If the house doesn't go through, everything stays the same. I'll feel embarrassed for not qualifying for the house. I'll feel embarrassed if Pete hates what we've done to the house. I'll feel like an idiot for improving the house, because I feel like we trashed it in the first place. But people make mistakes. You're gonna live. Remember the whole work thing? Stop blowing things up in your mind and then eating it away. I mean seriously, stereotype much? Really? Eating for stress?
- I feel like a fatty. But once again, emotion. I honestly don't look THAT bad. I look pretty darn good in my pics. It's just me being overly critical.
- I'm not parenting Rids the best. But I can't change the past. I can only change the future. Which means healthy stuff for Rids, Ricky and I from now on!! From now on!!! So I need to add that to my list.
