OCD about everything

Something has snapped in my brain. I realize that we only have about five months to raise the money we need and improve our credit score in order to get a house. I'm gonna admit it. Odds are pretty slim. It's not like I haven't tried in the past. But it's like there's a special service my ex uses that indicates when would be a good time to completely douche me. For instance, my ex and I combined our student loans. Now they are about $170k. Guess who gets to take care of all that? I tried texting him and calling him to take care of at least a portion. Anything. Be a responsible adult. I've taken care of taxes, bills, student laons (I paid about $4500 last year, think that made a dent? Of course, not.) So now I have to pony up again. About $500 a month. If I'm lucky. And MOST of it is his. Argh!!!! There's nothing I can do. He refuses to be an adult and get a real job or take on real responsibilities. And then he has the audacity to try to finagle money out of my old SIL. Son of a --!!!! So, yeah. Otherwise life is good. My husband is sweet, my son is perfect, and my friends are great. Oh but my OCD, I've downloaded tons of finance apps. Each one has been horribly lacking. Who can just lump their bills in by month and pay like that? Has no one ever heard of paycheck to paycheck? Seriously?!? Ugh. Anyway, headache is coming on. I need a nap. Life is good, life is good, right?