It's getting better all the time...

betta, betta, beeetttaaaa...okay enough Beatles quoting.

Although I sit here all itchy as get out. Although I'm exhausted as all get out. Although I'm still sitting here working on my sick day. Things are getting better.

I've had a few thoughts run through my head lately about my single status. Or rather my lack of boyfriend companionship. There are a few things I miss about being in a relationship, but the size of that need is slowly dwindling.

I no longer get weepy when I see another couple cuddling. I no longer spend an hour before going to sleep thinking of my lack of bedmate. And when I'm sick, although it'd be nice to have someone around to take care of me, I no longer require it.

Don't get me wrong. I look forward to someday having someone in my life to share the ups and downs. However, at this juncture in my life, this is more of a luxury than a necessity.

This is good. This is progress. I'm finally starting to become stronger and more independent. Look ma! I'm maturing!

Gorgeous Weather

I got my first taste of living alone this weekend. R & K stayed at a hotel Saturday night and Sunday morning. After our Toastmasters meeting, the two headed out and I had to deal with what I was going to do for the next 24 hours. So, I figured it was time for a new shirt. I went over to Macy's and picked out a hot little top that I'm not too sure can be used for business attire.

I then came home, to an empty apartment, and started cleaning. I know most people think this crazy, but when I relax and when no one is around, I prefer to clean. So I set about vacuuming and washing. I opened up all the windows and took in the fresh, crisp air....and started to relax.

After cleaning, I settled down to watch one of the movies I just bought...The Simpsons. The other two roommates came home and we ate Chipotle. Soon, they went to bed and I continued to watch tv. About 11 me and the dog went to bed.

The next day was just uneventful, but bliss. I relaxed on the couch and watched more movies. Started laundry. Gave the dog all the clean toys I just cleaned. When R & K called, I was happy to talk to them, but almost a bit dissappointed that my peaceful solitary was about to end.

I'm still enjoying the weather.

*Dreamy sigh*

Oh Justin Timberlake...when did you grow and become so desirable?

Okay, I admit it. I bought SexyBack. However, I had no idea how freakin talented and sexy Justin is. He really did bring sexy back. With each song I listen to, I realize how diverse and dreamy he is.

Okay, teenage-like rambling, done.

Life has been okay lately. I decided to stay where I'm at, work-wise. Did I mention that already? I have no idea. I've been so busy, I know I've mentioned that lately. I'm getting somewhat of a grip on my job. The issue is that as much as I love my boss, her organizational skills leave something to be desired. (Boss, if you're reading this...what the heck are you doing reading a blog? and secondly, you know it. Don't argue it.)

Anyway, so I've been trying to get everything organized and prioritized at work. Think I'm doing okay, but waiting for that next project to turn the corner and pounce on me.

I'm starting to push back. With each day I grow just a little bit stronger and a little bit smarter again. Who knew that divorce had such a devastating effect on not only your emotions, but your self-esteem and just common sense. I've been in a fog for such a long time. I feel like it's only starting to clear.

On another note, I'm competing in a couple of Toastmasters speech contests. If you'd like to watch (that just doesn't sound right), email me and I'll let you know where they're at (if I know you.)

I think my new profession will be druggie

During the past few days, I ended up with a pretty bad allergic reaction to something. I was horrendously itchy, and I thought I just had dry skin. However, upon visiting the pharmacy at my local CVS, the pharmacist looked at it and said, "Definitely allergies. Take some benadryl and itch creme. If it's gets worse, call your doctor."

So since that day, I've been a bit loopy. I hate being loopy, except for one thing. No cares. No worries. Everything is just kind of rolling off my back right now. Need that report asap? No problem. There's about 50 other requests you need today? Pushaw!

I am a little needy though. It would be really nice to have someone right now...to hold and care for me. But oh well, such is the life of a single girl. I have a teddy bear for cuddling and other toys for other areas that are lacking...

See what I mean?!?! No worries. Everything is just...whatev.

I'll check back again when I'm lucid in the hopes that I didn't post anything embarrassing.