My buddy called!!!

Thanks Hippo, for calling!!! That was a way cool surprise!!

I haven't been able to see my hippo-pepperpot for quite sometime. She even spoke amiably with hubby...and that a big thing!!!

We used to have such fun times, and to tell you the truth, hippo, I have completely blocked those so called 'bad times' out of my memory. I had completely forgotten those episodes until you brought them up. But that's just me. I could certainly say I've had quite a bit of 'shitty' experiences in my life, but I choose to focus on the positive ones. Life is much better living in denial!!

One thing I appreciate about my hippo, is she still keeps in touch. True friends do that. Through thick and thin, good and bad, we stay in touch.

Someday I'll get over there...someday.

Confuscious Say...

I never knew I had such proverbial friends before. Thanks guys!! You're right, memories past always seem more brighter than possible futures. Why is that? I worry too much, that's for sure.

Speaking of chinese proverbs, have you noticed Confuscious has gotten a little lazy lately?? Hubby and I love chinese food, so we end up with quite a collection of fortune cookies. But we've noticed that our actual supply of 'fortune' is lacking. These cookies now have more what I consider lessons, than fortunes. Such as:

"A kind person will make many friends."

or some such nonsense. I mean, if I wanted lessons on life, I would buy a book from my local Barnes and Noble.

The fortune cookies that I now look forward to are the somewhat pessimistic ones, such as:

"Snarky individuals do not get free drinks."

Okay, that wasn't actually a fortune we received, but just wait. I bet it will come up.

And so I'll leave you with a fortune:

"Person who blogs makes many unknown friends and makes up foolish words based on security standards."

Have a lovely fall!!

Weather

I know, how cliche' to talk about the weather, but that's what I'm about to do.

Walked out this morning, and it was so nice and beautiful. I love this time of year.

There's a slight chill in the air and all the good smells carry. The sun feels good on your back while the shady parts of you are freezing.

This time of year makes all the above 100 degree days so worth it. You just want to cuddle in bed or the couch, pop on a movie, and sip cocoa.

I arrived at work today and a woman passed me that smelled faintly like Vicks Vapo Rub. It smelled so wonderful. Oddly enough it reminded me of winters past in which I had colds. But for some reason, they're good memories. I remember sitting outside in the cold with my buddy Sean and doing Scrabble games, sipping cafe mocha. I lived for those lunches.

Then later in the day, I would head over to hippos and we would smoke and talk. I'd be freezing my butt off, but the company, smokes, and drinks was so good, who cared about weather. Her kids would be running around and about every five minutes would come over and demand, "Mom, I got somethin to tell you. Mooommm. I need to tell you something."

Ahhhh, memories. Sometimes I fear that the future does not hold such cherished moments as the past to me. (And I must admit some of my better memories involve cigarettes. I doooo love smoking! Can I bum a fag from anyone??? Damnit hippo and Sean, why'd you have to move?? sniff, sniff)

Thank God for Launchcast

So I'm sitting here doing my thing. Actually listening to Carole King, who completely rocks, when one of my favorite songs of all times comes on:

What's Up - 4 Non Blondes
Man this song brings up memories and I still love singing to it now as much I did back then. I always have flashbacks to when the song was most popular. For this one, it was a summer of my high school years. Hanging out at grandma's in the city. Watching 4 non blondes sing on MTV over a pool of scantily clad bikini girls and topless surfer boys and getting my groove on in the middle of the living room.

These were the defining moments of my puberty. When Nirvana was just getting popular and Pauly Shore was the shit! Days were filled with watching MTV's The Real World and silly movies like BioDome. All that I cared about was getting my fill of movies and music.

Ahhhh, the good old days.

Not Much to Update

Everything is going well here. Still freakishly tired. Hubby is too, but he keeps tweaking his portfolio. I told him to relx, but he refuses too.

Work is okay. Got done with a massive project, so I feel better about that.

Ovulation is not going so well. Although we're not actively trying, I'm tracking everything for when we are ready. Everything points to no ovulation this cycle. But I'm not going to worry about it too much. Hubby and I were majorly stressed. We picked up a few bad habits. That's done with now, so I need to just forget about it and worry about next cycle. Just want to make sure everything is good.

I went to the GYN the other week. It takes 3-4 weeks just to get results back!!! Oh, and by the way, men? I don't ever want to hear you complain ever again about cough and turn. You have no freakin idea!!

Okay, well I think I'm going to go crash for another half hour. Hubby couldn't get to sleep last night so he asked to sleep in. So I get the wonderful pleasure of doing so too.

BTW, Ashley haven't forgotten you. I may just send you the database as is and ask you're opinion on it. It's just that it's not nearly finished yet. Thanks!!

Rest, I Need Rest!!

Here's a pic:

(LeftToRight: My mom, my grandmom, his sister, his grandmother, his dad, HIM, his mother, his (our) friend from school)

Only two pics came about with both he and I in them, And they're horrendous, so you don't get to see them! Why do they look so horrendous? Let's go over the past two days, shall we?

Thursday --

8-5 p.m. I worked
5-2 a.m. I worked with him on his final (The portfolio). I was cutting and running around like mad.
2 a.m. Finally collasped in bed in exhaustion.

Friday --

6:30 a.m. Cursed and hit snooze button.
6:40 a.m. Go to Starbucks to get badly needed caffeine.
7:00 a.m. Finally got back from Starbucks drive through which is almost next door to our house. Packed up the car. Drove him to school.
7:30 a.m. Realized he's missing various items. Drive back to home, get stuff, drive back to school.
8:30 a.m. Drive to Walgreens to get more stuff. Drive back to school.
9:30 a.m. Take shower. Clean up living room. As I'm washing my hair, I hear the phone and a knock on the door. Father in law has arrived and mother in law is enquiring when I will be by to pick her up and go to airport to pick up sister in law.
10:10 a.m. Arrive at mother in laws. Head for airport.
10:30 a.m. Almost get into fight with guy at elevator because he's starting harrassing me about honking at him in airport garage, because he was at a complete stop on a steep incline and I was driving a clutch. (*coughassholecough*)
10:50 a.m. Wait at gate. Get more Starbucks.
11:00 a.m. Get sister in law. Get out of airport. Drive back to school.
11:30 a.m. Get to school. It's packed like anchovies in a tin. Stand around and look at others portfolios. Go get more coffee.
1:00 p.m. Go get lunch (Chinese - yum!!) with family. (Sidenote: Dead on my feet. So freakin tired.)
3:00 p.m. Father in law takes hubby home for nap. Sister in law and I go shopping for a dress (for a wedding she has to go to tomorrow) and presents for hubby.
4:45 p.m. Start back home. Hubby calls, he's on his way to graduation. We missed him. (SIL was going to ride with him)
5:00 p.m. Get home, change clothes, pick up friend.
5:15 p.m. Got friend, pick up mother and grandmother.
5:30 p.m. Got friend, mother, and grandmother, pick up mother in law and grandmother in law.
6:15 p.m. On way to graduation with all family in tow. Took 15 extra minutes just to get grandmother in law in the car. Cursed myself for not allowing extra time.
6:30 p.m. Drop them off in front. Go to parking garage.
6:40 p.m. Shit!! They started on time. Cursing the fact that they scheduled graduation on a Friday, during the middle of rush hour, in the middle of downtown, AND started on time. (*coughdumbassescough*)
7:15 p.m. HUBBY WALKS!!! Ta, da!! It's done. Turn over to friend and ask, "Okay, can we get outta here now?? He's walked. It's done."
8:30 p.m. Go get car with hubby and friend in parking garage and wait HALF A FREAKIN HOUR to get out. This is after getting impatient and walking up seven flights of stairs in high heels. Very winded. Very tired.
9:00 p.m. Drop off mother in law and grandmother in law
9:30 p.m. Drop off mother and gradmother.
10:00 p.m. Get back home. Go right back out to eat. (By this time I feel so tired, I might have well as had seven shots of tequila because I can barely move.)
11:00 p.m. How did friend get home? Oh that's right, we took her. Damn I'm tired.
12:00 p.m. Crash in heap on bed. First night's sleep in which my head actually hit the pillow and I was in la, la land immediately in about three weeks.

Yeah, still tired. Got about 11 hours sleep, but damn that was two harsh days. But now we have to clean the house and I have work to do, so I shall leave you at that. When I come up for air, I will update some more.

Thanks for the congrats everyone!!

Quick Update

Hubby graduates tomorrow.


Yippee!!! (Oh wait, I mean today) So tired. :-)

Have a happy Friday everyone.

I Admit It...

So I'm sitting here listening to Yahoo launchcast and a song comes on. My bootie starts ashakin and I'm thinking, "Who is this again? Gwen? Beyonce?" Then the lyrics start. Britney Spears, Toxic.

Oh well, so I figured, I might as well open up and admit things I'm ashamed to admit. I guess it's my own personal Post Secret.

1. I like Britney Spears and Justin Timerlake music.

2. I am obsessed with my cat. First thing I look for in the morning and last thing at night is my cat. Hubby is right, if it came down to a choice between him or the cat, the cat would win paws down.

3. I feel guilty for not loving some of my animals as much as others.

4. Sometimes I secretly wish the fish would die already so I could stop worrying about them.

5. I don't think Michael Jackson did those things, and I still love his music.

6. I have never voted.

7. I still care about what my father thinks about me.

8. I ate cat food when I was a kid. (and no, I don't still do this)

9. I have my Bachelor's and my Master's degree and no freakin idea what I'm going to do with them.

10. I secretly fear (well I guess not so secretly now) that if I make too much money I will go to hell.

11. When my friend was stripping, a part of me envied her and wondered what it would be like to strip.

That felt good. Anyone else want to share??

Tired, But Better

I feel so friggin tired in the a.m., but much better since the kick in the butt.

So #1...lose weight. Last night, while working from home, I started building a weight loss application. I forgot how much I love to do these!! I have started by creating a journal form. I also have a master list of foods and their caloric value (okay, really WW point value).

So I started thinking that I might be able to share this with some friends. And also, what would I want in this app?? (It's just Access, but I may create a better version in VB to sell in the future...at a low rate though. I hate gouging people for software that helps.)

So this is what I have listed so far:
- Track weight
- Track daily eating (by meal, food description, portion size, servings, points/calories, and a notes field.)
- Track exercise
- Able to keep and add to a master list of foods, including fast food resteraunts
- Allow the user to track by their own food categories

I have all those in my db right now.

What I want to add:
- Ability to build weekly menus from food or dish templates
- Ability to add menu items to daily journal
- Grocery list report that is built from your menu and an optional field to track what you currently have in your cupboard and what you actually need to buy
- Reports on avg daily intake, weight loss, menus, etc...

Can anyone think of anything else that might be helpful?? Ashley, you in particular know what I'm thinking.

Anyway, I feel useful again, so I'm doing much better. Ta, ta ladies!! and studs!!! ;-)

Enough Is Enough!!!

Okay, out of the muck and into the sunlight!!!

I've had it with myself!! It's time to take some action!!!

There are some things I need to do and to start, I'm making a list. I'm a goal oriented person and goal oriented people need what?? That's right...GOALS!!!

So my goals are:

1. Eat healthy and exercise in order to lose 30 pounds by December 31st. This equates to about 2 pounds a week. I will acheive this by making healthy meals and planning family menus each week. I will use the Weight Watchers system to track what I eat and ensure I'm eating all my veggies and fruits. I will not make any excuses to exercise, and will get in at least 30 minutes a day of healthy activity. I do this not only for myself, but for my baby, which I will try to conceive after I can acheive that healthy weight that will provide the best environment for my baby.

2. Make my home comfortable and clean. I will do this by focusing on those areas that irk me the most, such as: our front and back yards, our bedroom, and our dining room. I will keep my house clean and uncluttered by donating items to charity and throwing out items that are junk and not needed. I will start to make a comfortable living space for our future baby.

3. I am happy and unstressed at work. I will focus on time management and delegation of duties. I will be professional and seek ways to enhance my skills such as seminars, books, and associations. I will communicate and work with my boss when I become stressed or overloaded.

4. I am in control of our finances. Budget, budget, budget is my new mantra. I will share our budget with my husband in order to set and discuss our monetary goals.

5. I am feminine and sexy. I will only wear clothes that make me feel better about myself. I want to exude feminity and professionalism through not only my actions, but my appearance.

6. I spend time on me. This includes getting my nails done, getting my hair done, reading books, taking baths, reading my bible, blogging and other activities that help me retain my sanity and help me de-stress.

7. I am a loving and caring person. I will be there for my friends and family. I will show them that they mean the world to me and are the most important thing in my life. I will not be rude, condescending, or childish. I will be forgiving, understanding, and loving. I will not be ashamed by my actions and will stand up for myself in the most respectful way possible when I need to.

8. I am Jesus's child. I will go back to church and not judge others based on their pitfalls. I will lead by example, yet forgive myself when I forget myself.

9. And most importantly, I forgive myself if I fail to do these things all the time. I will follow my goals, however won't belittle or berate myself should I get off the path from time to time. I will simply pick myself up, shake myself off, and get right back on that path to my goals.

Seven

I. Seven things I plan to do before I die:

1. Have a baby.
2. Make peace with my father.
3. Buy a red cherry mustang for my mother.
4. Visit Hippo over in England.
5. Finish something aside from school.
6. Take singing or dancing lessons.
7. Visit Ireland.

II. Seven things I can do:

1. Form my tongue in the shape of a taco.
2. Forgive easily.
3. Program in sql, cobol, and visual basic.
4. Fix a flat tire.
5. Sing.
6. Drive fast.
7. Make my hubby very happy, if you know what I mean.

III. Seven things I can’t do (edited now that I'm in a much better mood):

1. Speak espanol (even though I took three years of it in school)
2. Spend tons of money on designer clothes and brand name accessories
3. Say 'No.'
4. Lie.
5. Finish projects at home (at least not within a reasonabel amount of time).
6. Cook like Martha.
7. Forgive or approve of Pres. Bush.

IV. Seven things that attract me to people of the opposite sex:

1. Sense of humor
2. Gorgeous eyes (especially bright blue or green eyes)
3. Intelligence
4. Kindness
5. Warm heart
6. Great laugh
7. I love a nice set of pecs

V. Seven things I say most:

1. Cool
2. That's too funny
3. Sweet
4. That sucks
5. Shit
6. Okay, but not again
7. I'll start exercising tomorrow

VI. Seven celebrity crushes (only seven?):

1. Kevin Spacey
2. John Cusack
3. Edward Norton
4. Brad Pitt
5. Steve Zahn
6. Owen Wilson
7. Tom Cruise (yes still, he's such a cutie)

Epiphany

Although I can't really go into detail on what happened tonight, another Hippo moment happened to me. I told a freind at work about some of the trials and tribulations I've been through in the past. Tonight on our way home she said that what I had said helped her to feel closer to me and be able to share some of the crap she's been through and going through. I felt and still feeled awed when this happens to me. That something I said or did inadvertantly made someone feel better about their situation and our friendship. I feel completely humbled and honored by it. In a way, it's exactly what I needed too. More than just 'in a way', it's exactly what I needed.

Then it hit me. It's not a new concept. Not even new to me. But I beleive the most important thing you can do in your life and do for someone else is simply this:

"Everyone just needs someone to believe in them."

That's all. It's simple, yet complicated. It's the easiest thing you can do, yet the hardest too.

I believe this is my creator's way of saying this is my first step towards finding myself again. Amazing. isn't it??

And no, I haven't been smoking the ganja.

Time to hit reset

I am doing better today. Yesterday I was trying to figure out what it is that has me so...well depressed, I guess.
I think part of it is my friends. I feel like I have none at the moment. None close. None that I can go viist at whim. Play Scrabble games with. I'm not saying I don't have close friends, it just doesn't feel like it right now.
Hippo os all the way over in England. I couldn't even give her a hug if I most desperately wanted too right now. No late night conversations on the back porch. My friend Sean has completely ditched my ass. He left in July and I've only received one email from him. Asshole!

I haven't heard much from my pal, K lately. I have no idea what's going on with her. And my buddy Lana has been busy trying to get used to her schedule for sure. I need to email at least K and Lana to see if they want to get together and do something.

Another thing, I think, is that I;m just not where I want to be in my life. I've finally accomplished my degrees, but I'm still a stress monger, overweight, don't have the house to ourselves. In addition to that, I don't think I've been very tru to myself lately.

I've been trying to please other people too much. I need to find myself again. I need to learn to relax, and definately learn how to have fun.

I guess I need to just figure out who I am and who I want to be. I may not post for a little while, or I may. But I need to do a little self discovery.

Thanks everyone for your kind words.

I fear the worst...

My apologies to the men, but I'm going to need to share a little TMI. (too much info)

Okay, so I'm now in freak mode. Thank goodness I have another GYN appt on Tuesday.

***TMI (highlight to read)***

My 'visitor' is still very light.To the point of non-existance, but not quite. Lighter than last time.

***END TMI***

I took an HPT test, but it came out negative again this morning. I would say it's all the stress, but this all starting happening before we started trying having a kid. As a matter of fact this is what started us wanting to start actually trying.

But what if before was different. For some other reason??

Why do I feel this way??

And then hubby said I've been acting differently too. More mean, more moody. He's right. I just about broke down in tears today.

But what if it is just stress?? I haven't seen my friends in ages. Two of my best have moved far, far away. One I haven't heard from. I have no life other than my stressful job at the moment, and my stressful home life. But it's not reallythat stressful.

And I worry about my weight. What if it is just my weight? But wouldn't that have shown on the tests??

(Sigh)

I'll keep you updated. Other than that, I'm going to try to get a better attitude towards all this.

Feeling Better

Once I finished a pain in the butt report today, I started feeling much better. Still overwhelmed, but better nonetheless.

Thanks everyone for your kind comments. I needed that. I was about to slug someone this morning and I'm not naming names but *coughmencanbesuchdickscough* I will confirm it wasn't my husband.

He has been such a sweetie throughout this, his most stressful two weeks of his entire life surely. Just 10 more days and the insanity (at least for him) will be over. We can have a semi-normal life. Not rush dinner. Enjoy doing things together. Yay!!!

I want to start really digging into this house. Making it nice and comfy. Work on the landscaping. Work on making a baby. All kinds of fun stuff. Maybe even take a normal vacation!! Woohoo!!!!

Oops, forgot to send out invites again, Damn, I am so un-Martha. Is that right anymore?? Who else should I say? Un-Queer Eye for the Straight Guy???

So, feeling not so psycho now. But wait...I'm sure it will come back. Stay tuned for Onyx's next psycho breakdown.

Arrrggghhhhh!!!!!!

I feel like ripping everyone a new jugular.

I have not been happy the last few days. Aside from the fact that my 'friend' came to visit, I have to deal with the shit at work.

I don't know if it's me or them, but everyone has me pissed off. They keep on asking me for these ridiculous requests in an insane amount of time. I'm sick and tired of being piled up with ridiculous expectations. Something is bound to fall apart soon.

I even snapped at hubby today. I shouldn't have. But between me not feeling well, and stress, and just everything. Well I snapped.

The roommates are pissing me off. Granted one if going through finals. But if you were offerred free everything with the exception of gas and school expenses, wouldn't you maybe pick up around the house? Show appreciation? Empty the trash when it starts becoming a mini replica of the leaning tower of Pisa?

The issue is that I don't feel well. And when I don't feel well, I hate roommates with a passion. They show no respect whatsoever. Oh they're nice. But they lack the ability to think, "Oh she doesn't feel well. Maybe I should take out the trash. Or buy some freakin tp." I mean WTF?!

So this morning I look into the closet and no TP. I look over at the dispenser, hubby used what was left. Now I'm guessing that the roommates will buy some more out of sheer necessity. However I wouldn't put it past them. I have never...NEVER...had a roommate buy TP in our house. The only thing close has been one roommate who used to split the grocery bill with us, and therefore also pay for the necessary household supplies.

I can't wait until they leave.

Oh and Danius?? The reason why I can't kick hubby out to the couch?? Because...THERE'S ALREADY A ROOMMATE ON IT. Augh!!!!!!

You know...it wouldn't be so bad if they helped out and actually made it worth our while. But they never act as if it's their own house. Never vacuum. Never clean. Bleh! :-p

Okay, I'm gonna go try to go calm down. Maybe I just need a vacation.

Ugh!!!!

Quick post here. Not feeling well.

Went to lunch with mom and grandma. I love them....but they drive me nuts. Constantly men bashing. And all kinds of twisted ideas about politics.

By the way, I'm doomed. I really think there's a family curse. On my mother's side of the family, I beleive I'm the ONLY blood relative left. Everyone else that's the last of the family line was adopted.

I asked my grandmother in great detail about our family lineage and apparaently it consists of alcholic and infertile couples quite a ways back. Well I suppose the alchy part is expected. I mean...I am Irish.

So after that enlightening lunch, I came back home and immediately got angry at hubby because I caught him outside smoking. And I think because he smoked, he was SNORING SO LOUDLY last night. I woke up about ten times..Ugh!!! Then I really started feeling like crap.

I feel slightly better now, but not long enough to finish this entry. Or rather weak enough to end this entry now.

You Can't Handle The Truth!!!

LOL. I wondered which of the men would be the first to cave. Thanks Justin for the honor.

Anyway, not feeling much better today. Won't go into details.

It is beautiful here today though. I think it's supposed to rain. It's still a bit hot for doing anything outside. Hubby and I went shopping for some matte board for his final project. On the way home, we saw two guys spreading rock in their front yard. Hubby looks over and says, "See? Those guys already have their yard landscaped and they've only been there for a couple of months."

He's such a brat. Of course, I quickly reminded him that we both work and were going to school. When he graduates we'll have all sorts of time for updating the house.

Well I have to go shower (roomy and hubby just got finished so hopefully there will still be some hot water left). I then have to go to lunch with my mom. That's right...I HAVE to. I don't really want to. I mean I love her, but I'm on edge and not feeling well. I'm not really feeling social today. (sigh) But she loves me like crazy (and yes, I love her too) and with all this hassle I'm going through to have a baby, I can somewhat understand where she's coming from. So I'll go.

(sigh)

See you on the flip side.

Raining

I can't beleive it's raining...again. This is Phoenix Arizona. Drought for like 10 years. And now...BAM...rain off and on for the last few months. It's great!!!!

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My sincere apologies to EVERYONE who knew Agent 007s girls was a dude. Geez, was there anyone who didn't know?? Here I was hoping to get people to go, "What?!" and all I got was a, "Yeah, seen that years ago." lol

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I'm kind of bummed today. Have no idea what's going on with my body. My temperatures are fairly low and I had a dip below coverline today. (For those who don't know usually a women can tell if she's pregnant by a third shift of unusually high temps. A dip below coverline usually means that Aunt Flo is on the plane and due to arrive very shortly.)

But Aunt Flo's flight isn't scheduled until Monday. And I'm regular as fiber. So what the heck?? I still have cramps. Oh yeah, didn't tell you that. Cramps started a couple of days ago. Now, once again, let me explain. This can be very good. Early cramps usually mean posible pregnancy. They're light, but they're there.

As far as I remember I have NEVER gotten cramps before Aunt Flo. But then again when you're trying to remember things that are now important but never were before, it's bound to be sketchy.

So another day of insanity. I was really hoping things would clear up today.

Truth or Dare?

I wondered if any of the stories on Snopes.com was true.

http://www.snopes.com/movies/films/bondgirl.php

Is it Thursday already??

I have a feeling I scared everyone off with all my weird posts this last week. Oh well, that's me.

Today has calmed down some bit, but I am still addicted to the fertility website I found the other week. There are all sorts of women on this site. From those trying to conceive to those trying to avoid conception. From women that are on their first try or on their fifth.

Everyone is just like me, obsessing everyday on where there are in their cycle, what their temperature is, when they can take a pregnancy test.

I have even become addicted to their own special little emoticons and abbreviations for all sorts of things. AF = aunt flo, HPT = home pregnancy test, BFP = big fat positive. I'm a fertility whore. Literally.

It's really quite hilarious actually. A few times a day we log onto the website and post up for everyone to analyze our temperature patterns, our periods, whether we had cramps, sore boobs, or weird cravings. No where else in the world have I seen to many women share so much personal information.

I do hope I get pregnant soon...then I can obsess over other things, like temperature, cramps, sore boobs, and cravings.

On Edge

Today is my first day back to work after a small (I mean small) vacation.

I'm very tired, but aside from that, I feel odd today. I don't want to jinx anything, which by saying that jinxs it, so I'll just leave it at that.

Work has been crazy from the moment I arrived. What in the heck was I thinking taking a WHOLE day and a half off from work?? Someone slap me.

Anyway, I'll write more later.

It's time for change

I haven't mentioned anything about the whole Katrina disaster because quite frankly I don't know what to say.

However for the first time since this disaster I was moved beyond anything I have ever felt before. Since the say of Katrina I have felt outrage, anger, sadness, disbelief, but not until today was I able to really feel even a smattering of how those people feel.

Please see below article and if nothing else, watch the video.

Video:
http://www.crooksandliars.com/2005/09/04.html#a4783

Article:
http://thinkprogress.org/2005/09/04/worst-abandonments/

I've never been a big Bush fan and have for years been outraged at the lack of real leadership our politicians have shown this country.

There are available resources, but they're not getting them. On one day they actually admitted that they were pulling people off of rescue to deal with the looters.

Fuck the looters!!! Fuck everything else!!! Get those people out of there!!!! Take care of those who need to be taken care of. WTF???????

Update

I am feeling better. Not nauseous all the time.

I've been tracking my fertility and every thing looks fairly normal. It shows me as having ovulated, so I can't possibly be pregnant, right??

My appetite has come back, but not like it was before. My throat feels much better now. I'm just trying to chill now. Still keeping tabs on everything, so if anything changes, I'll let you know.

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We now have a second roommate with us. Hubby told him he could stay, but only for a month. However he works at night. So all the guys are up and rowdy late at night, while I'm trying to sleep. Okay, so I don't think their that rowdy. It's just been awful for me to try to sleep lately.

I have to take my tempat 6 a.m. every morning. In order to get an accurate reading, I have to have three straight hours of sleep. However, a range of things have been waking me up before hand. My bladder for one, the dogs, the rommates, the dogs, oh did I mention the freakin dogs???

They come up an put their cold wet noses all over my hands to let them out. Then I let them out and they bark at ridiculous things until I've finally gone nuts and yell at them to get back in. Brats!!!

Well I'm going to go continue to enjoy the last of my vacation. Take it easy, sleazies!!

Real Sex

So I was watching this HBO special about sex. (Because there is no way there is going to be a program on about sex, and I'm NOT going to watch it.)

Anyway, it was about two sex therapists in England helping a couple out. The woman used to fake the big O, but then decided to come clean with her husband. He didn't mind much but every bedroom session after that became a big fiasco to get her to come.

First of all this couple was gorgeous. I'm amazed that some little 98 pound, sexy, perky tits, blond can't have a decent O and I can get one 99.99% of the time.

In addition to that the therapists told her not to feel so bad because, get this, only 70% of women surveyed get an orgasm during penetration sex. W...T...F??????

That can't be true!!!! I mean, come on people. This is a new era. This isn't the 1800s. Remember all that feminist stuff in the 70s about women deserving good sex too?? What the heck happened to that???

If I don't O, I am not a happy woman...and neither is hubby (like a good hubby should feel).

Okay, so which makes me think...hmmmmm...so if they can't acheive O during penetration, can they at least acheive O during masturbation??? Oh wait a second!!! Women don't masturbate. At least, not the good ones. Only the slutty ones, right???

Wrong, wrong, and wrong. I started when I was introduced to harlequins. I didn't realize that's what I was doing, but I was. Ever since then I have been in love with the big O.

If you don't think you're woman masturbates, ah, ha, ha. Have you ever left her alone in the bedroom? The bathroom? The shower??? Ever????? Then odds are she does.

And good for her!!!!! I wouldn't have such good sex with my husband (my first and only) if it wasn't for my self exploration. It's healthy and it's good.

But I digress, 70%????????? That can't be true??????????? WTF???????????????????

(sigh)

Oh by the way, the therapists did give good advice. Men...do you want to know f it's a real O??? Only one way to tell. Her neck is flush and her netherregion is too sensitive.

Note: Have you guys ever seen the Overstock.com commericals?? The big 'O'?? Okay first of all what a blatent sexual innuendo. Second of all it HAD to be a man who had the idea for the commerical . Everything is white with one big red O in the middle of everything. The only thing I think when seeing that commercial is, "Do I need to get tampons?"

I'm Normal!!!!

I woke up today and (although my stomach still feels upset), I'm having an ideal ovulatory cycle!!!

Whew!!! Being overweight, I'm always afraid that I have all these problems that the media says I have. When I first started taking my temp, it was showing a little low. But now I know that's just me because the doctor called and said I don't have any thyroid problems.

But I show classic signs of fertility. (see my chart http://www.ovusoft.com/forum/chart.asp?id=onyxpurr) Yay!!!

So if you're interested, keep an eye on the temperature for the next 9 days. If it stays up there's a good chance I could be preggers. As a matter of fact the software will determine for me and if it thinks there's a good chance I could be pregnant, it'll place a little chickie in the same row the egg is.

Gawd, I love living in thie day and age. Of ovulatory software and epidurals. Now if I could only get Baskin Robbins to open back up my world would be perfect.

Side: Thank Hippo. I think I'm probably driving you and my sister-in-law nuts the most. You know it will only get worse once I do get pregnant. Then I'll be worried about m/c and the labor. Augh!!!! Does the insanity ever stop or is that why people are constantly praying for their kids to move out at exactly 18??? lol

Anyway, have a good weekend everyone and shag to your hearts delight!!!

Chill On The Down Low

I am seriously going to try to chill this weekend. (No not like the stupid Coke commercial. Who was the friggin idiot? Nevermind.)

Anyway, I've been ordered by my boss to take off Tuesday. I can't wait. Glorious 4 day weekend!! Oh wait, is that Friday I hear a callin??

Better get to bed so I can get closer to the weekend.

I know my humor has gone down the drain lately. Perhaps I should take a brief blog sabbatical?? I just felt I should make up for my last extremely uncomfortable entry.

See ya later, gators.

Tests Are Good

I know this is a good sign, but still frustrated over what's going on with me. Must be just a bug in general. Thinking of taking some Robitussen because it's good for baby-making anyway.

Well, at least I know I'm healthy!!! And hubby and I can have fun trying.

I'm keeping an eye on my basal temp and aunt flo for any signs of conception. Will let you know in about 9 days. :-) Well at least now you won't have to hear me lament my paranoid fantasies anymore.

Cross your ovaries, or testes, for us.

Waiting Is The Worst Part

Don't you agree?

So, I'm just waiting until the test results come in. Considering the negative pregnancy tests, I'm fearful that it is something else. I don't seem to have any pain, though, so it can't be all that bad.

Just another busy day, so I thought I'd check in.

On a more somber note, please pray for our people in Louisiana and Mississippi. Thousands dead, millions without homes or jobs. They need our help.

Should you be inclined, here is a list of organizations that will accept donations to help those currently less fortunate than us:
http://www.charitynavigator.org/index.cfm/bay/content.view/catid/68/cpid/310.htm